Sometimes I imagine I’m invincible.
Sometimes it occurs to me - I could live, live like this, without need of emotion or feeling or any of that sentiment that’s so horribly damaging, so terribly messed up and which could seep into every crack of my life and just make everything so uncertain and fragile and prone to breaking at a single touch.
Sometimes I almost succeed at it.
But sometimes I get reminded of how horribly human I am, how affected I can be by the littlest of things and how at those moments everything, just everything feels like it’s somehow mired in some congealed pit of despair and I can’t quite seem to navigate my way out of it.
Instead somehow I stop at a moment, and wonder why my face is wet, why my vision’s a little blurry, why my breaths come a little shorter and don’t quite seem as stable as they normally are.
Yuzuru Hanyu - 2014 Worlds Exhibition
If you feel invisible with your friends, it’s not your fault. It’s not your fault for having a quiet voice and an active mind. It’s not your fault for needing someone to meet you halfway before coming out of your shell. I’ve spent more than enough time blaming myself for feeling invisible. I told myself it was a choice, that all I had to do was speak louder. But your voice shouldn’t have to be thunder. You are not a background. You are not paint on the wall. You deserve to surround yourself with people who notice you and are deeply interested in you, people who ask you questions and stick around for the answers. If you’re the quiet one, the shy one, the reserved one, you shouldn’t have to be as loud as the person next to you to be heard.
Step 1: Comment on a woman’s attractiveness on every single occasion in every single venue no matter how irrelevant it is. Build up a dating culture entirely dependent on a female’s beauty. Teach children that only attractive women will ever get anywhere in life, will ever be praised, will ever find love and have a family, will ever have a chance at happiness, are worth knowing, are worth being.
Step 2: Mock women for caring about how they look. Call them shallow.